Our first notable point of awareness after day one is how difficult it is to be still and silent, even for a short time. The fact that we find it hard to stop and rest can make us feel like failures. We need to see it as the opposite. When we attempt to stop and realize that we can’t be still, it shows us the places we need the Spirit to enter in. This is a great gift because it removes the mystery of why we feel tired and discontent. When we are unable to rest, we implicitly can be saying that God cannot do his work without our help.
Today, set aside some time to take an inventory of the areas that seem as though they are in a state of unrest. We can better ask for restoration and wholeness when we can identify specifically the places that need healing. Pray, and ask God to show you the places in your heart and life that you may be missing. Write down some of the notable things that arose in your time of silence. Give yourself permission to admit the areas that are out of balance. Give yourself permission to slow down and take note.
Caution: There may be a temptation to minimize or justify the areas that are out of balance or need rest in your life. Be completely vulnerable and honest as you engage this process. Write down everything that comes to mind, no matter how difficult it is to realize about yourself.
It is no easy task to walk this earth and find peace. Inside of us, it would seem, something is at odds with the very rhythm of things, and we are forever restless, dissatisfied, frustrated and aching. We are so overcharged with desire that it is hard to come to simple rest.
We must be ready to allow ourselves to be interrupted by God.
Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts: And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.
Psalms 139:23-24 KJV
O God, thou art my God; early will I seek thee: my soul thirsteth for thee, my flesh longeth for thee in a dry and thirsty land, where no water is;
Psalms 63:1 KJV
I stretch forth my hands unto thee: my soul thirsteth after thee, as a thirsty land. Selah.
Psalms 143:6 KJV